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Closed Eyed Insomnia

by A.L. Laureate

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1.
Verse 1: (A.L. Laureate) dear lord i thank you for another day of life the oxygen i breathe a chance to believe the forecast looks quite superb i feel his cool breeze my memories purge its sunday it sure is sunny im feeling hot i look to the sky for some heavenly drops a voice from inside says ill protect ya we a perfect song im the beat you the acapella faith in the invisible seems cliche but gods pain drains from the sky into rain i know you aint far you around the corner set to erase scars the moment will call on ya drops of love come down from above but it still seems unreal to some in this prayer i claim whenever it rains let it be gentle to the eyes of the spirit in your name amen Hook : (Spanish) Puede ser que venga manana sin tardar Puede ser que tengas que esperar Lluvia estoy contando al cielo Yo creo que esta agua bastara Verse 2: (Praverb the Wyse) Thank you for another day, able to rise Take a shower, wash the rain from my eyes Feeling pure, release the pain that's inside Endure, on a journey where the fables and lines Become a way of our times// Baptized, in Holy Water, on the Sabbath day Recalled memories, they are scattered frames Brothers from another mother, we react the same We rush the ball, others just pass to gain// Yards, same scars on some plain skin We childlike raised in the same playpen We had crowded minds, the spirit of God Will organize your thought process, make it vacant// Rain has a rhythm, and a melody On a sad day, it provides a remedy When it is bright, you see a rainbow Thank you God, for this day and a halo// Hook: Puede ser que venga manana sin tardar Puede ser que tengas que esperar Lluvia
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Verse 1: july 12 1987 the resurgence of hate brings me into this earth with a curse directed from my father cause to him i was a bother from the start i was rejected he dont seem to regret it moms was beat spat at with hate flipped her confidence in men into a distrust in all of them 4 years into this earth barely new this individual hes what you would call a deadbeat and a criminal i talk to myself question his decisions i could always sense he would never pass the outerlimits of knowing me giving me love where its supposed to be thank god for my mom protecting me from such harm damn he couldnt do this for me 2? was it his messed up upbringing or something more conflicting problems of his past got lost in the dash but rather than go through them he hid his demons in his stash Hook 1: whats life when your circle around the same thing thinking heavy of situations its nonexisting inherits without choice listened to the lower power programming his soul and spirit to be sour cant fight it naw naw hes in a crisis quantized to the tempo of satan and his likeness he dont want me i guess ill never know why his negligence is live and mortified Verse 2: all this has led me to be subdued on a route paved down onto a crushed groove with both hands on my head i frown and descend to a place where failure continues to regress i detest whove i become unlike my peers i tend to disagree with me being a good son i pray my mother forgives me your son doesnt think highly of himself im quiet but really screaming out for help what's this insanity and paranoia my delusion since i left california at age 23 i could see it depression followed me b4 birth it aint genetically a secret now that yall know its shocking to behold how a dude so nice could think so low in my defense if theres one thing i could say demons stay locked in my brain every second of the day Hook 2: whats life i circle around the same thing thinking heavy of situations its nonexisting inherit without choice listen to the lower power programming my soul and spirit to be sour cant fight it naw naw im in a crisis quantized to the tempo of satan and his likeness i dont want it i guess ill never know why my negligence is live and mortified
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im outta bed once again slip on my sneaks still asleep hoping its friday but its only mid week i reach for my keys and there it be a black 1960 camaro the purest form of poetry it reveals its prestige from the headlights down to the chassis i break it down for a better understanding i was basically born inside of this car look past the machinery tell me how this is steering me take the classic paint unblemished by the rain the hardtop roof dodging heat from hells face the engine packs more power more comfort speed limit breeze the car forever stays younger the care and the work pushed to the point where it hurts miles add on the more it exerts i know what its worth but its priceless for words till the instance everything started going in reverse my mind created obstacles with my driving from primitive speaking to adulterated meanings beautiful to experience what im feeling now another car that inhales love and breathes out a smile its a different sentiment the more that i approach it the more i feel like gettin in its kind hard to comprehend take a listen ill explain how my days in this world would never be the same captivated the day i layed eyes on it a black 91 camaro had me talkin ebonics curiosity overtook my shyness its convertible top had me speeding through life without a license no need to rewrite this the roar of the exhaust had me smitten locked to the wheel together every instant rev up the engine protection came sittin inside not the joyride i fell in love i was given the time flirted with the gas pedal for a bit the action and excitement lead to other incentives resisted agitation with speed i perceived the car had me feelin like i was driving christine what did all of this mean a real dream i created or a nightmare with the other camaro sedated anger from one another it saddens me to uncover the animosity dwelling with my mother and my lover tires screech creating burnouts from both sides its ever so silent but its a massacre in my mind two women who exercised love since it struck they look at me now like you must choose between us in the center of a demolition already in progress praying to the lord to please stop this process i drop to my knees with tears on my cheeks they crash into my heart it scatters on the street
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Verse 1: i awaken again trapped in a frivolous scheme ndigenous to the dream of well being you know the attention deficit the world reveals how to lie how to kill the embodiment spreads with such skill im patient my rhymes become distortioned in cadence tired of waiting im itching to relieve this craving ive been tasting its like junkies needin a rock needin a shot rappers stuck on making whats hot take a look and listen at everybodies hit list nonstop gluttany with the limits presented how much time should i fall back i had enough the time has come for my heat to dissolve rap days of waiting on deck are over shaking in sub-zero weather gettin the cold shoulder unleashing arsenals of bombs you could keep with words to show my craziness unleashed Hook: the anger the pain where does it go to sustain i try to fight back the wait gains the more my time lapses i wont change no i repeat i wont change no good will ever stick to me every time its tried it runs away to be free Verse 2: it took mad will and strength to write this verse the mere thought of it breaks me down till it hurts the time we spent together love was the language of choice you and i one voice now our eyes become moist a dehidarated soul regenerates in fear anger discontent i cant blame you i put it on me karma rubs in deep into my skin please hear my voice apologizing i surely get mine for the rest of my life i never crossed the line of respect it got dimmer fed up of my retention in depression waiting for change erupted arguments and hot tempers ill never forget you your imprinted in my heart the end is the power of descent over the start back then to right now i want you to hear me now i hope you find the happiness you talked to me about
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Verse 1: it seems imma have to get this going time to show out and throw out the craziness im forming i need liquor to better paint this picture i call triback whut up tell me where the party at? up in the spot leaning on the wall bottle in hand i hear the voice of drunkenness call people start to notice gossip about the motives i cant think straight but thats how i keep focus i dont two step i just vibe to the sounds of whatever feels right my shoulders bounce cause of hypnotic and henny my feet move to the flow of ciroc red berry words slurred eyes bloodshot burned not to mention my eye eye eye vision is blurred yall ready ima do this once so please follow this is the way you party like there aint no tommorrow Hook: dance fellas dance put your drink up do the off beat dance dance alright dance do what you do to this off beat dance bailen mujeres bailen dejen que el alcohol las arrebaten bailen asi bailen dejate de pena que esto es gozadera Verse 2: (Spanish) mamita esto na mas es pal momento me encanta como te vez pero ya tu sabes eso anhelo que el alcohol nos lleve a tu apartamento y demostarte porque me dicen el hombre de hacero HA!!!!!!! el bailoteo me tiene mariado pero de buenas a primeras me tienes concentrado en tu cuerpo y tu piel la manera que te mueves tan illusa sin poder detener pa ariba pa abajo mi mente da vueltas disfrutando tus encantos borracho con la botella en mi mano bailando pero todavia sigo gozando el alcohol me tiene observando belleza seas tu o esta otra hembra que sera que hago me meto otro trago o me voy con esta hembra a bailar a otro lado Verse 3: get loose come on dance and break rules get the bottles and ladies to the other room you know how it goes it gets liver than live if you fall down get up cause you doing it right bottles to the head what up girls getting bent thats right acting a fool forgetting what you said dale como quieras dame mas botellas estas la noche tuya y mia cosa bella Repeat Hook DJ Grazzhoppa Solo
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Verse 1: its been a long night the clock hits 12 enterin the zone sidewinded walk to my car turn off the alarm my eyes swiveled around grabbed the door handle so i wouldnt fall down opened the door put the bottle in the cup holder still sober drunkenness it comes closer i took a seat turned the key lit up a cigarrette then put the car in D got my black shades on wit hnic 2 echoing through the speakers driving around no precise place i got be in the setting is great and i aint trying to leave it traffic lights blink to the snares in the beat sounds of the night arouse the evilness within me blowin smoke guzzling the liquor still i keep a eye on my rear view mirror back track to the beginning of the week everythings good its was a web of deceit reached to the passenger seat for a different cd i got pain i need to be free i take a huge hit off the cig hold it in chase it with the liq its the vengefulness of sin wait all ive done is wait broke hard for too long i now accelerate melodic vibes blend in with closed eyes crooning off key to slow paced rnb i speed up now im going 90 my eyes closing but adrenaline kept rising which reminds me of hate from my father the loss of my lover couldn't place her over my mother the car began shaking i paid no attention then it stopped sumthins wrong with the engine smoke entered the car at large rates i reclined my seat back spaced out in the haze the roof of the car became a watercolor painting found a shortcut in the labyrinth i was making signals up top started forming a scene swating smoke to define anything to see as i looked halogen lights had me squinting then screeching tires awoke me to the crash id been in my car totaled hoping it wasnt real the windshield shattered debris covered my face with no faith left judgments been detained ill burn another one down death is running late i see the ambulance hear sirens coming closer i feel faint heart is beating slower just as the emts went to pull me out of the wreckage i blacked out in the middle of my sentence
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Hook: (Anjuli Stars) And i wish that i could be born again Redo all my wrongs and do it all again And i wish that i could be born again You wonder why just look up to the sky Im calling Verse 2: im dead the passageway to hell is wide open heaven calls from afar but god is soft spoken the soundtrack to satan is amusing hell was a possibility i made the trip all inclusive low self esteem tagged along in bottles of alcohol killin my every thought poison was chosen rewrote my life story made it bitter subservient to the urge of this sinner i was given love i took it for granite never accomplished things cause of personal entrapment my souls torn face disfigured i smell the brimstone burning my voice quivers i let out a whimper the surface opened i was lead to a picture i couldnt believe what it was its me in a casket so i see what wishful thinking does Hook: And i wish that i could be born again Redo all my wrongs and do it all again And i wish that i could be born again You wonder why just look up to the sky Im calling Verse 2: opinions and theories became disoriented dangling through the cobwebs of the past and at last i feel death first hand with no need to dilute any method that it used i look at my body the blood drippin down it disinterest in life lies kept me frownin i took deception a tad further im now here playing back the last 23 years my dad wasn't with me the moment i was born my moms showed me love i still felt alone my girl was my world cant believe i let her go tears turn bloody trying to reveal sumthing how could i uncover emptyness within my best option is a paper and a pen last seconds of life i end my last writes with a wounded heart hoping repentment will suffice Hook (2x)

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This concept album is a direct look into the mind of A.L. Laureate far from the emcee or the poet. This is a personal in depth look of the life of Alex Larenas the person. Closed Eyed Insomnia is based on true events presented in audio format within a time span of 7 days. In each day you will see various events that have brought pain, strife, and questions about his personal existence. This album came about after sleepless nights of anxiety,self-paranoia, and heavy depression. As shocking as it may be to many his heart is poured out throughout this album so be advised this album will be hard to swallow but in all its fairness its 100 percent reality from the tormented soul of a man.

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released November 11, 2011

Album Cover Design: Sean L. Miller (www.seanlmiller.com)
Recorded by: Alex Larenas at The Efficiency Miami, FL
Mixed and Mastered by: Michael "St. Mic" Moxham (timeless.shogun@gmail.com)
Track 1: Produced by Symphonic
Track 2,3,4,5: Produced by DJ Frantic
Track 6: Produced by Teddy Roxpin
Track 7: Produced by Fritz The Cat

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